How are you? Really? I bet it changes from day to day, minute to minute. I know that I am not paying attention to how I am sometimes. I have been diligently staying informed about Covid19. I have been watching the news and checking Facebook more than ever. I have been reading and doing crossword puzzles, watching movies and Netflix and Amazon series. Honestly, we can do so much without really feeling, can't we? I may be reaching a saturation point with this quiet busyness, this absorbing of information. I need to feel deeply because that is who I really am: someone who cares deeply. It's all in there; waiting for me to express it. That is my job right now; to find expression for what is inside. I dare say that is the job we are all faced with. That is why I do the work I do. When administering healing touch, I am aware of all that our bodies hold onto for us. All the experiences that we haven't had an opportunity to properly feel - especially the painful and scary ones - live in our cells, waiting for us to give them our attention, to give them permission to be acknowledged and thus, transformed.
I have been privileged to work with you (I have chosen this mailing list specifically to include you though I will also publish on my Website) because you model for me the art and act of creating a place to be vulnerable to yourself- to those feelings that sit in your cells waiting for your attention. I know that it might not always feel to you that your massage transforms you; transformation often takes place over time. When you show up week after week, or month after month as it may be for you, you give your body, your heart, permission to feel, really feel. Every cell in your body listens in, pays attention to the love you are giving yourself and thus those cells release anger and shame, fear and hatred, remorse and regret. You might not really know in that moment, that pain is being relieved through love and light. When I start your session by inviting you to breathe deeply, it is because that is the pathway to letting light and love flood your being. You and I have built a relationship of trust. I honor that trust by including trust in the Divine (you can use your word for that- God, Goddess, Universe, Nothingness, Source). We don't work alone, we work with the Energy of all Life. When I am in the daily habit of showing up for you, I am also in the habit of showing up for myself. I make sure to utilize the community of healers that I trust so that I give myself the continuity of healing and releasing what I don't need anymore so that I can be a loving presence.
We are all missing each other right now, and we are missing ourselves too. Even before this Pandemic, I think we have slowly been getting accustomed to living without a deep connection to ourselves and to others. Strangely, during this time of physical distancing, we are being given an opportunity to reconnect. Don't go about it in the old way- the way where we just react and talk, talk, talk, judge, proclaim. Let's do it by taking a deep breath, and tuning in to our breath and our bodies. Give yourself some "table time". Do it on your bed or floor or yoga mat. Put on some gentle music if you like. Breath light and love into your heart. Be scared, angry, bored. Keep breathing, let your tears fall, let the transformation take place. Let it take time. Let it be time when no one else needs you. Be generous and stay there for minutes- maybe even an hour, every day. The more you allow yourself, the better you will be able to just offer your heart and your time to someone else. Being there is the greatest gift you can give someone. Transformation takes time. When we begin to heal, we begin to express differently. I am crying now, getting ready for this new world, are you?
I have such gratitude for those working the front lines right now, thank-you. You may not be able to allow any feelings right now. It may truly be too overwhelming to let your guard down now. Our prayers are with you. I vow to do my work so that I can hold you when this is over.
I want to hear from you. Let me know how you are doing. How is your family? What are you doing with your time? Do you need help? I offer EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) and Energy Healing work (Reiki) remotely. We can set up a time for either or both if you'd like.
Be well, see you as soon as that is safe.
